So What ?

Tuesday, August 26, 2008
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i just spend Freaking 5 hours watching Laguna Beach
Guess thats the last 'hurrah' before school reopen(for me,that is)
I'm feeling really guilty and 'kanchong' right now.
Guilty because being my stupidself, gave something to
the wrong person and everything that happened just seem to be my fault
Kanchong because ..let me just release the anger first.
why cant anyone just fucking call me and inform me the be your-fucking-self day is coming?
worse,its this friday and i have absolutely nothing to wear.i cant not go to school.
my mother is like,nagging at me,telling me to change and whatnots.
and here's the Best-Damn-Thing part.(not!)
the discipline mistress told my mum that i need to buy a new skirt
plus school socks and start wearing collar badge.
soooooo freaking frustrating.
at this point,im thinking of ending secondary school life next year.
well,i'm off.finding something to wear.(-.-")

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6:19 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008
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Here's what i've learnt about myself today:
1)i get upset when i've been given a silent treatment
2)i learn how to stand up for myself & stop being a pushover
3)i cry when the pressure is overwhelmed
4)i get mad when things dont go my way
5)i realise some people has a bigger issue than me
6)i found myself crying when the person i care cry
7)i'm not a vengeful person unless you know...
8)that if you take things with less emotions & drama,you'll feel surprisingly grown-up
9)I'm Fucking Oblivion.

Dear ---que,

i've made the decision .
i'm proud i did without the force of anybody.
i had fun with you.
and the other two pervs.(haha!joke oii.)
but really,i dont want someone to ruin this 'becoming-friendship-bond.'
Let alone,Her.
i'll try to handle this prob as maturely as possible and without hurting anybody's feeling.
and yeah,not get pushover again.

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6:03 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008
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Hello Readers,
yesterday, a very close friend of mine called me(!!!!)
i was shocked+happy+surprised+sad
it's been like,what,3 months since i last saw him?
we used to see each other like 5 times a day and now none a month.
he told me he missed me and was happy he get to keep in touch with me again.
i feel the same way too!!
ha,but i do not like him that way.
you know what way.
i cant wait to meet him again.which i assume will be like another 2 months??
Anyway,went to plaza singapura with mom & the two crazy sisters.
it was fun,of course.ate at burger king(current favourite fastfood restaurant)
went to spotlight,window shopping & that's it.
we called it a night.
& right now,i'm packing my bag and seriously,school is such a bore.
especially since your form teacher always aims you.

Good Night readers.

p/s:thanks alysa&atique for saying i have nice ass*wink-wink*
LOL

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8:39 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2008
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Hello Readers,let's start with a disturbing yet true statement
: I'm fucking stupid.
& its not just for the sake of saying it
There's this friend of mine,Z.
we used to be so close until she start doing things that i loathe
then there's this friend of mine,E.
i love hanging out with her & she's different from Z in alot of ways.
Z starts to notice that i'm drifting apart from her
and lets just say she isn't happy.
She badmouths about E and hope that i would listen to her.
the stupid part:i did.
When i talk to E about it,She's not happy too.who would?
I found myself in this mess again when i'm force to choose my own friends.
seriously Z,this is getting old.i'm tired of having to choose who i want to be with.
& again its a case of me being used.
over and over again.
Z said i was being used by E
but then again,she's has alot more money than me.
Do you know how stupid you sound ,Z?
Secretly i thought it was you who's using me.
money,clothes,ciggy.ciggy was last time when i'm full with it.
but now its clothes & money.
clothes!i cant believe i just said 'sure,i'll find it' to you.
So that's why i'm stressing over something that's not suppose to be stressed about.
friends are suppose to make friends happy not miserable.

goodbye,readers.

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12:49 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008
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Today was soo damn boring,i might as well just stay at home and sleep
but of cause i cant.first of all,while i was sleeping during chemistry,LXT woke me up
and there was Mr vik,Mr Lee, Mr Shahril & miss woon.
Why?Two boys from my class needs to do an apoogy infront of the whole class & also receive a spank on the butt.it was horrifying!i was at the front and i got the clearest view.damn.
and right after school has ended,went home straight-away.*YAWN!!*
But yesterday. God!
y'all should know how pervert Ellysatique were.okay,yesterday,went to alysa's house.
as usual play computer,watch tv & eattt.
what happened other than that is not normal!i let you people's imagination run wild
goodbye,readers

p/s:Ellysatique,pervert giler!!

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8:46 PM

Monday, August 11, 2008
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First of all,HAPPY BELATED 43TH SINGAPORE!
i had a fun time celebrating it with my sisters,wanie,debe & Jid
but it would be double fun if i get to spend it with ellysatique.
by reading their blog,i know they had a fabulous time too.
up till now i still wonder why do i feel 'a sudden pang of sadness' when the fireworks went off. I've had those feeling since the 2007 countdown.Anyway,this was what happened on that day.
Meet Jid at the woodlands MRT station at 5.40pm and then took the train.
Wanie & Debe hop in at yishun MRT & reached city hall at 7(??).That's when Kin,Debe & Jid started being annoying,talking with the 'lar sey' at the back of every sentence.The crowd was murder!it took us like an hour to finally break-free from the crowd.
Dinner at long john silver & a bunch of stupid matreps cut queue like WTF ?
But whatever,we made through the long queue and settle down to eat.
After that,walk walk walk from marina square to esplanade fountain.
Just as we were relaxing our tired legs and sore foot,kin's psycho ex was searching for us & we all know he's a troublemaker.and there we go again, walking as fast as our leg can take.
it was a very very tiring but helluva fun day.

How's your day,readers?

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6:20 PM

Friday, August 8, 2008
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So today is kinda short day.sleep,eat and more sleep.i did not attend school today so its the only opportunity for me to sleep through the whole day.and now i have those hungover from hell.
MOVING ON.
i must say I'm excited for tomorrow.its national day !and i cant wait to celebrate it,although its with my sisters instead of friends.suck that. i'm not in the mood to blog right now so i'm gonna end it here.

goodbye,readers

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7:27 PM

Tuesday, August 5, 2008
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Being talk bad behind by a 'suppose friend' is already bad enough
but being lied,cheated & used,you really take the cake.
you lied,you pretend, you used me, and now you're ignoring me?
how evil can one person get ?well,you know what ?i dont give a damn.do as you wish if it ever makes you happy.you're the last person i expected to do this to me but you just prove to me that you're not trustworthy. Let alone a goodfriend. and again, you know what ? i'm through with you. how can you face someone after calling them names ? criticize and insult them ? so i am right afterall, you are a thick-skinned girl. and now you're thick-skinned PLUS two-faced. and it gets better and better each day. So i suggest you stop taking my money AND badmouth me. cause you never know what i'm capable of, woman !

bye readers.

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10:02 PM